Today, I got a chai latte and drank it while walking to work in the rain, under an oversized umbrella. I especially enjoyed this because it reminded me of living in Japan when I often walked to work in the rain. I enjoyed my classes and am glad to be back after Spring Break even though I was plotting to quit. I have been feeling discouraged since I calculated that my hourly rate after babysitting and transportation is hardly worth the trouble. I considered home daycare yesterday.
Today I looked at moving to the nice school district and stuffing my darlings into school. I am having a hard time staying focused on them throughout the day and Eleanor poured a strawberry smoothie on Charlotte's head today. I found an awesome house that we can't afford. I think it's what Chris wants, and I could enjoy it, but it's not what I truly want. It makes me nervous to imagine being a have after being a have-not for so long. I feel comfortable with nothing to lose.
My idea: wwoof, obtain land, build cob house, maintain garden, chickens, possibly a few cows, artwork in the winter.
I started reading Wendell Berry and he's already my new hero.
8 gun shots just went off on my block.
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I am glad you are doing better. Some days or weeks are really hard. Maybe the warmer weather will release some energy in the girls and help calm your life. :)
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