A bit of catch up: survived AP and the microbiology teacher from hell (even got an A,) survived a horrible bout of depression, now teaching Humanities and having a great time with it, teaching several painting and drawing classes at private studios, sold my first piece on an opening night, and sold almost everything I've painted in the last year or so. Making more new friends in town and enjoying my community, enjoying my family. Signed up to run a marathon and training for that.
Starting nursing school in one week. Mixed feelings on this.
Cons:
I love teaching art and I'm afraid that's ending
afraid I won't have time to make art anymore
discouraged that all my experience and education is in art and now I have to start fresh
I'm not that interested in the material to be learned
nursing school is a significant commitment
I don't feel like doing it.
I don't want to put in catheters.
I'm losing my cred as an artist.
It means I have failed as an artist.
Pros:
I will never have to get charity food again.
We can pay our bills each month.
We can travel.
We can pay off our student loans.
I can pay for a studio space.
I will be helping people.
I'm a great teacher because I'm great with people and that will transfer to nursing.
Am I in it for the money? Yes, of course. But I choose nursing because I could never do anything unethical or that involved turning off my empathy for others, including any sort of sales or advertising.
Nursing it is.
When people ask me about it lately, I hear myself saying I'm sick to my stomach or I feel like I'm jumping off a cliff. That's true, but I wish something positive would come out of my face.
It's gonna be OK.
And so, no longer a blog about homeschooling - this is now the story of one part time artist/part time art professor/mom going to nursing school to pay for life.
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